April 28, 2025

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Now that majority of the business aspect has been posted, the next posts will probably have more emotions in them.  Some may be all happy, some may be cuss word filled. Hard to say at this point. Refer back to my adverse reactions to meds.. I have no clue where my body will take me thru this. That was your disclaimer. LOL

Treatment day. I'm really not in the mood today. Wasn't the best weekend for me emotionally. Wondering if it's a side effect. Emotions don't usually control me but for some reason this weekend they did. Anger, frustration, sadness, depression, feeling overwhelmed... 


Spoke with the PA prior to treatment. I was cleared for treatment today so that's good. By their scales, looks like my weight is down a few pounds. I think she said my BP was 142/88. Not the best, but then again, I'm not the best today.  The rest of my blood panel looked good, thankfully. 

Not every days are sunshine and rainbows. Some days just suck. Life. I will refer back to today's devotional, Matthew 5:6 "Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled." I need to revert my focus on the Lord, asking Him to get me thru days like this. I know the negative self talk is not of Him, but of myself and Satan. 

Insert the song Desperate by Jamie MacDonald.

Today is a shorter day for treatment.. no immunotherapy today. Probably a good thing. Just sit, work and get pumped full of chemical. 

Maybe I need to go buy plants. 



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